VIOLATION;

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

theend (:

this is my last post.

((:

------------------------revamp-ing/;

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1:51 AM

Friday, February 17, 2006

080206 - read that entry again , the part about the kids , or the suicide.
i wanna add on smth to it.

to scene one : HOW A WOULD HATE B FOR A LONG LONG TIME

to scene two: unpredictable, BUT, THE GUY PROBABLY BLEW UP HIS LAST CHANCE OF FRENSHIP WITH EX-GF.

...............................................................................

i wanna make my blog a private one.
sooner or later
when the exams r over i guess.
but i'll just blog as norm for the time being.

anyway.

went to zouk on wed.

mark.jace.allan.allan'sgodsis.weizhong was there. etcetc.
not a bad place.
yepp.
but it was retro =x lol.
well, got kinda tipsy.
was smiling smiling and smiling whereever i go.
knock here knock there.. ahhaha.. jace was doubly high at first
haha she drank 2 F.L. lol
i had whiskey,F.l, tequila pop, some beer and liqour which i had no idea what it is
hehe. jace's very pretty. haha she's 20 but she dun look 20.
we went ard phuture and zouk.. hahaha. it was fun hanging our wiif her.

cant believe i danced retro.
hahaha.
cuz retro's like so funny
i was happy haha very happy
but for a moment i got sad and teared a lil
but i got happy again
(:

allan was drunk. hahahahaha=x
mark was perfectly sober
hahah he must luffing in his heart when he saw all of us seh
hahahaha.
saw a fren there, haha, long time no see. ((:

at ard 3+am we got out of the club.
met weizhong
he talked to me ?
i think so..
and then his bro's fren drove us back..
weizhong said i dripped saliva..
i think he anyhow wanto paiseh me only
hahaha.

mark and allan are nice people.
JACE ESPECIALLY
((:

i went back home.. seh seh-ly
cant stop luffinf at myself in the mirror
hahaha.
=X

--------------------
watched the fog.
very nice movie

oh yeah ive not strted on revision yet
hahahahaha.
fantastic
worked today,
working tml
zzz
i'll make use of sat and sun instead

violated;
12:58 AM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

zzzzzzzz (:

violated;
2:58 PM

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

140206

happy valentines ((:

I ENJOYED today((:
except for a period of time i got irritated by someone

went to work today at 11am~
11:10, lol late.
worked wif boss,angeline,entia and weiling today~~!
hehes. it was fun , sales was good ((:
we ate fries...lotsa fries... and ate waffle.. drank lotsa water.. hahaha talk lotsa cock. haha
ill nv forget wad boss said today : "LAK KONG KONG LAN PA KONG KONG" LOLLOLOLOLOLOL! hahahahahaha. *winks to angeline*

angeline gave me this really huge pink angel pillow! took a picture with it i'll get it uploaded! hehehe. i gave her a bear with roses ard it ! ((: hope u like it ! ((:
entia gave me a box of sweets~ she's so sweet ! ((:
my lady boss passed me a rose when i got back from my lessons! ((:

so yeah, i left work at 6 with angeline.. went upstairs to get stuff for entia and weiling..
got choco for bosses to share ahhaha . ((:
after that i went for my singing lessons ......YAY!
enjoyed lessons , met a new fren, marry's her name. ((:
24,wrks in an advert. company,shy girl. ((:
jason taught us BREAAATHING today! hehe
how to breath and the proper way of singing using the diaphragm
he's got a nice voice ((:
haha oh yeah and there's this anthony 'student' who's always missing lessons hahaha.

haha. returned home early.. at ard 9 ? hehe .
but seriously , i did enjoyed myself today..
miss angeline terribly!
((:

and karine...
dun think abt it anymore........
um.. call me ill rush down..
i'll get chocolates for u too! =X
cheer up woman..

thanks for the pillow/'poster'/rose angeline
thanks for the perfume wz
thanks for the rose ivy
thanks for the sweets ent-
thanks for the rose/card unknown*
thanks for the bear d.m

violated;
12:37 AM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

me.
home//

angeline//entia/me
chinaBlACK.

me.jiahao.toby
INTHESTUPIDQUEUE =x

the . stupid . queue.
that's half i think =/

me.

violated;
1:12 AM

130602

tried uploading pictures.. cant ! .
problematic blogger! =x

anyway.

have been extremely tired these few days. sick as well.. fluctuating fever, cough, pukingss, flu, bad sore throat..etc etc . sighs!

110602 . saturday ++ . ))

singapore idol auditions.
met jia hao at 730am at tiong bahru plaza
cabbed down to cini .
VERY VERY tired.
was sick and had a bad sore throat plus cough.
but well. went there anyway.
the queue's shocking
every1 queued all the way til the railings which is near the express way.
haha.
i wasn't sure of wad to sing that day.. my 1st + 2nd songs r like so messed up
i tried memorising a song by aslyn
i replayed the song for more than a 100th times
but i just cant get even the first verse in
thank god jiahao helped and he thinks My heart will go on* is a better song
didnt get to pract that song much.
4 times only i rem be4 i go in for that audition on sunday- =/
the media made lotsa interviews with the people there
was there queuing from 8 am til 8pm and i didnt get to go for the audition that day .
was HALFWAY of the entire queue at ard 8pm.im number 1994th person . haha.
they're passing 100 out of the approxm. 5000 who participated. ((:

after all that queuing i wet back home to change..
one WHOLE day of standing in heels really kills.
went to chinablack that night..
=X
super shag.
i left early.. haha, didnt drink anything at all.
but my throat still hurts like hell.
sighs.

slept at 3am and expected to wake up at 6am for my auditions..
BUT
i overslept and woke up at 9:15am
JUMPED outta bed. =X
so kan chiong that morning
called jia hao.. HE"s also sleeping!
he said he dun wanna go alr!
SHOCKS!
but i told him im going so i got myself preapred and everything and rushed down .
queue wasnt as bad as the first day.
thank god they let me cut in

my condition somehow worsened.
not enuff slp? yeah, partly.
vomitted right be4 the audition, kept coughing while waiting for my turn..sighs.
definitely degraded my performance )):
made a few mistakes like not looking at the judges in the audition room .
but well.
i met quite a number of good friends!
there's one girl, her name's linda, she CAN SING VERY VERY well
i SWEAR.
but she got disqualiffied.
=( WE ALL thought she's SURE to get in . REALLY. her voice's fantastic.

jiahao and toby said the judges looked as if their enjoying their singing(e.g. swaying here n there) but. they got diaqualified too. kinda ironic.

on the first day of audition jiahao told me when some of his frens knew he joined sgidol they said nasty things. like " CAN a not!? dun XIA SWAY leh" but jia hao said : " you didnt even noe how my voice sounds like , at least ive got the courage to join, i dare u to join la" .
i totally agree with jiahao. and i totally have extreme hatred for this kind people. ACT NIA. felt like slapping their faces. hahaha. DONT EVER BELITTLE SOMEONE WHEN YOU'RE NOT EVEN COMPARABLE TO A PIECE OF SHIT.
well. i think i received smirks from ppl when they heard that as well.
an issue of immaturity.

though i didnt get in, i've been there , done it. im happy ((:
the experience is good.
the people there's nice . some.
haha
i remembered my whole batch sitting outside WORLDOFSPORTS and we started singing national songs to calm ourselves down..
it was really reaaly really fun
never forget diva-linda ((:
and of cuz that 16 yr old girl who calls herself ALEOVERA haha. she's very pretty ((:

jiahao said there were some funny people ard. hahaha
one had a bag with a HUGE mirror inside..
underneath it hid LOTS of ties.. in different shades and design. lol
that guy was tagged (usually it's good to get tagged but this guy got tagged cuz he belongs to the william-hung type) haha
heard from a new friend(who participated in the prv round 2 yrs back) that e auditions this yr's harder, higher expectations.
there used to be 6 audition rooms.
now there's only 2.
lesser funny people as well.

i'll never give up.
yes im sad , but i'll never stop trying
i'll improve myself
some things are inborne
some things CAN be changed
i like experience
and i strongly believe that the first failure is the first step to success.

pictures later. ((:

violated;
12:15 AM

Friday, February 10, 2006

100206

feeling happy somehow . haha duno why '/ ((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
in school's library right now.
have to hand up q methods.
ZZZ.

well.
im still sick.
hate it.
=(
lol.

soooo bored.
im going to change my blogskin soon..
hm. waiting for time to be on my side 1st. =x

hehs.
im feeling hungry .. i wannna eaattt =X
hahaha.

oh yeah im working at 2 later.
hope i wont be late.
cuz this qm proj will take up a lil bit of time ... =/

((: guess i'll get going.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ((:

violated;
10:47 AM

Thursday, February 09, 2006

090206

went to school to hand up java.

ate with wei zhong and hong kuan.
after that i went to bugis for a while and cabbed home.
was raining heavily.

anyway.
i had my hair straightened back.
((:

having slight fever right now
stuck throat
moody
SUCKS
oh yeah hypothesis testing's one of the contributing factor too.
have ZERRROOO idea how to do it.
and deadline's tml.
anyhow whack lar.

tml im going to sch to hand up the proj.
and aft that im working
at ard 6pm i'll be heading down to jiahao's place
probably with angeline coming along *havent asked her yet.*
we're gonna practice songs.
his mom's gonna help.
sighs. STUpid cough. )):

maple's boring
but i was playing it the whole afternoon.
killed lotsa shells and mushrooms
lala.

QM .
zzz.

oh god im so tired.

violated;
9:31 PM

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

080206

Actions speaks louder than words

these 5 words kept running round and round inside my mind.
as in, it related to some events that i think i shouldnt and wouldnt blog on.

Anyway!

i was thinking...

lets say there's this senario whereby 2 little girls are quarrelling about....hmm..toys.
A is playing with her toys one fine day and then B went over and snatch the toys away
A scolded her and B started shouting as well
MOTHER came and asked what happened, B started crying
MOTHER scolded A

hahas.
or lets say in another senario
whereby this couple broke up
Girl dont think it will work out anymore
Guy still wanna patch up or sth
Girl dont want
Guy do lotsa things for the girl..buy flowers..buy sweets..very nice gifts for the girl
But Girl just know that it wont ,WONT, work out
Girl rejected Guy
Guy hyper sad,dun wanna eat,grades drop, wanna jump down(suicide)
Guy JUMPED and DIED.

ONLOOKERS will push all the blame to the Girl. " if only u accepted him he will not jump" , "you are so evil,so bad" , "he's so nice he said good things about u" , "he's so nice he bought so many things for you", ETC .

the one who cries first always wins
the one who do stupid things always gain sympathy
the one who looks sadder(emotionally) gets ppl to be on their side.

THAT's REALITY .

the innocent gets blamed, only the people ard them who're really close to them knows they're not doing the wrong thing.

in SCENE ONE
if MOTHER is fair enough to sit down and get her facts right,
A would not get blamed

in SCENE TWO
if the girl accepted the guy's patch-back-actions
she WONT be happy
because her feelings are somehow drifted
FEELINGS- a very important thing in anything or shd i say everything
one-sided love , never lasts.

that's life.
how unfair it is .

oh yeah..
TRUST is another issue.
hahah. my boss told me loads of time not to get cheated or let anyone bully me
cuz im too soft-hearted(=x)

in my P.O.V (point of view)....
trust in someone/anyone only lasts for a period of time
why???
cuz everyone's changing(i.e. they might like you this instant, but start hating u in some other ways)
so yeah. ((:

violated;
2:19 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006

A: Hello! How are you?
Konnichi wa. Ogenki desu ka
B: I am fine. Are you faving break now?
Hai genki desu. Ima yasumi desu ka?
A: Yes. Can I sit here?
Hai sodesu. Koko iidesu ka?
B: Yes please.
Hai dozo.
A: Are you free on weekend?
Ano, konshu no shumatsu wa hima desu ka?
B: Wait, let me see. Saturday is not free, but Sunday is okay.
Eto, sumimasen. Doyoobi wa chotto. Demo nichiyobi wa daijobu desu.
A: That's good, would you like to watch movie on Sunday?
Iidesu ne. isshoni eiga o mimasen ka?
B: Yes that sounds great!
E iidesu ne, mimasho.
A: Then I will book the tickets. The movie is start at 8 o’clock.
Ja chiketto oo yoyakushimasu. Nichiyobi no eiga wa hachi-ji ga arimasu.
What time shall we meet?
Nanji ni aimasu ka?
B: How about 5 o’clock, and is that okay to have dinner with me?
Go-ji wa do desu ka? Isshoni bangohan o tabemasen ka?
A: That's great. 5 o’clock Takashimaya, see you on Sunday.
Iidesu ne. Go-ji ni Takashimaya desu ne. Ja mata nichiyobi.
B: Ja mata.

Sunday

B: Hello, sorry to keep you waiting.
Konnichiwa, omatase.
A&C: Hello
Konnichiwa
A: Ah guangrui, this is my friend, JunJie
Ah guangrui san, kochira wa tomodachi no JunJie san desu.
C: I am JunJie. How do you do.
Watashi wa JunJie desu. Hajimemashite.
B: Hello, I am guangrui. Nice to meet you.
Guangrui desu, dozo yoroshiku.
Are you Singaporean?
JunJie san wa Shingaporujin desu ka?
C: yes I am
Hai sodesu.
B: Are you a student?
Gakusei desu ka?
C: Yes I am. I am from TP ENG school
Hai sodesu. Watashi wa TP no kogaku no gakusei desu.
B: Really? Me too.
Honto desu ka? Watashi mo.
You can spean Japanese well.
Nihogo ga jozu desu ne.
C: No, not that good. But I can understand it a little.
Lie, mada mada desu ga, sukoshi wakarimasu.

A: Let’s go! I am hungry.
Ikimasho! Onaka ga sukimashita!
C: let’s go Chinese restaurant.
Choka Restoran e ikimasho.

Restaurant

B: It looks delicious. Any recommendation, JunJie?
Oishiso. JunJie san, osusume wa?
C: Err. My recommendation is prawn noodle.
Eto. Watashi no osusume wa prawn noodle.
B: what is is?
Kore wan a desu ka?
A: It is something like ramen in Japan.
Nihono no ramen na mono desu.
It is delicious.
B: I see, I will have prawn noodle.
Sodesu ka. Watashi wa prawn noodle ni shimasu.
A: Me too.
Watashi mo
JunJie, do you like Japanese movie?
JunJie san, wa Nihon no eiga ga suki desu ka?
C: Yes, I like it very much.
Hai, nihon no eiga ga totemo suki desu.
A: What kind of movie?
Donna eiga ga suki desu ka?
C: I like horror movie very much.
Watashi wa hora eiga ga totemo suki desu.
B: Really? Lets go watch.
Honto ne desu ka? Isshoni mimasho!

After movie

A: It was scary!
Kowakatta desu!
C: wah. I am tired. But it was very enjoyable today.
Ha, tsukaremashita. Demo kyo wa totemo tanashikatta desu.
Please invite me again!
Mata sasotte kudasai.
B: Sure
Mochirou!
A: Have to go!
Soro soro
B: okay, see you.
Hai. Soreja. Mata kondo.
C: see you.
Saiyonara.

HELP!! =X
tml have to act that out.

BURSTINGJANE

violated;
2:34 PM

zz .
im so tired

violated;
1:41 PM

Friday, February 03, 2006

im a fussy person
towards food ((:

but when i found sth that i really like eating
i would eat it everyday(ask clarine* LOL)
this wld probably last for 2 mths? 3 ? 4 ? 1 year?
but eventually i get kinda sick of it
i seek for the more delicious.

but.

i realise i cant find anything new that beats the previous

goodnights

violated;
1:00 AM

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
is it still bothering u now

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
itll try to move my fingers

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
sumtimes i sit in train zzz tt time he'll move my arms, feet, fingers

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
like sudden small jerks

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
i bring u to some other mediums ok

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
its okay..

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
its not abt u its abt me

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
wad u

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
i dont wan all this things to keep on bothering u

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
dun worry i can take care of it

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
i really dont wanna see ur pics dont wanna msg u i dunno why but this is part of my life already

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
but i cant stop thinking and thinking

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
i wanna help but i dunno how

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
i nearly got knock down by a bus just now it was red lights but i didnt see it

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
till the bus horn me then i jam the brakes

` _ + * jjannee // boo. shit+plstakecare says:
why nv see properly

LordwiL - dont ask me why. she means too much to me - says:
i dunno i just keep riding i didnt notice it was red light

now i noe why i wanna remain single.
because whatever bgr i have, there'll be an ending
and especially when true feelings are involved
you will still cry ur heart out 5 years down the road whenever you see things that resembles the memories u had.

violated;
12:17 AM

chinablack.11feb06

let me know if anyone of u wan tickets yeah- ((:
my email :
mynameisnotenaj@hotmail.com

violated;
12:06 AM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

2feb06

straight after he knows about the bastard spirit following me thing yesterday he helped me get an amulet from a medium today.

it's already two years.

he's still saying
" im hopeless"
"i gave up on my life"
"dont ask about my health"
"sometimes doc says "yeah its getting better"",
"sometimes "wilson did i tell u to take ur medicine why didnt u""
"i just know im getting weaker physically"
"im not supposed to smoke"
"Dont smoke or u will end up like this"
"it will never be cured"

"are you happy with your life"
"not enough money tell me i give you"
"pls take care of yourself leng"

=`( / a care that comes from within //

violated;
11:09 PM

ME and ANGELINE ~

((:

jaa mata ne.

violated;
5:30 PM

angeline and i did a potrait on saturday! =)
as in someone drew it for us =)

must-dos

1.java proj
2.tcs proj
3.qm proj

violated;
1:12 AM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

angeline.me =)

angeline.me =X

me.angeline+

jiahao,edmund,angeline and ME +
mos

jiahao,edmund,angeline and ME +
mos

yeah stupid baha's still here
wadeva. guess i'll just try to stop talking to that pervertic bastard

hm im sick! haha.
have clubbed for 4 consecutive days

fri - mos with ann,jiahao n edmund
sat- rush with eujine and friends
sun- liquidroom with karine,weizhong and jesmond
mon- rush and phunk with weizhong and frens

=).
went to ktv on mon as well.
i've only went to one visiting
she stays at hougang
blk 533
that's all

worked on cny as well .
=)

today's QM test was tough.
haha. im sure to fail again
=s

violated;
2:29 PM